Thursday, September 11, 2008
went to his house downstair and realised that his car is not around.
called him several times.. but never pick up.
i send him an email to say what i wanted to say...
and i guess that it. .
that is my closure..
-when are you
coming back? ;
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
i always though that, when 2 alike people are together and all seem to real to be good... it always turn out to be bad...
i'm tired that.. why am i always so affected by relationship...
looking back at my blog... i felt so embrassed... because... it is just the previous entry that i wrote, how ok is my relationship with Mr. X.
but now. just the next entry... i am complaining about it..
the thing that i like about him, and the similar character that i compliment about.. is what i hate now...
why?why?
am i going to let relationship bother my whole life...
is not that i have high expectation...
i just wanted to be happy.. without going through hardship.
i felt more disappointment, when you know that, you actually did put in effort.. but in the end, you still can't get the kind of unconditional love and happiness that you are looking for...
of course.. my life still have other stuff.
my work, is definately taking up a lot of time... i am so tired everytime after a roadshow.. and looking at those part timer... i just find that, they are sometimes just too much. when u treat them too good... i think mankind are like that.. when you treat them good.. they will treat you the opposite... crazy...
have been driving for long hours and repeated route that sometimes, i know i am on auto mode when i am driving. i know that is dangerous. but sometimes, when you are too tired and you just wish that you reach home soon... you will step harder on the accelerator and the next thing you know, the buildings beside you are flying~
i NEED and WANT to go clubbing... but i know that, part of me, are too tired to go. after a whole long 12 to 13 hours of work. there is only one thing in your mind, which is... REST. but i really want to go clubbing.... i need to have fun!
i think i can say that, i am also seeking for happiness. and if i can't seek happiness from Mr.X.
i need to go places or meet people to meet my happiness quota.
if not,... i will really... be very PEK CHEY.
PEOPLE... Friends!
i miss you guys.... hai~ i know. you all did ask me out... but beecause i need to accompany Mr.X and also i have limited time also... so ya. i have rejected you guys a couple of times... sorry for that.. However... i will still try to plan time for you all...
Church.. i miss going to church.
i know. i know. i have ask my boss b4, but now the period is not in my favour to ask again.. have to push back again. hopefully, i can make it on this sunday... as sat is my sister wedding...
family...
my temper had become quite bad.. but i am trying to control. and sometimes i realised that, i treat friends even better then my own family member.. oh no...
hai~!
got to change~!
well... this is for all.. at the time being i guess..
i just wanted to be happy in my relationship.
why is it so hard, for him to accept for who i really am..
i just miss him... papi.
-when are you
coming back? ;
...WISHES
...ENTERTAINMENT
