Saturday, October 13, 2007
now to think of it. infact it is not demanding VS satisfying. it is
Expectation VS Demanding VS Satisfying.
i think, i should not, at the very very first place. expect something from this friendship. because. the more we say how our friendship should be. the more expectation i will put on this friendship. and i have forget that i am a person that will ASK FOR MORE. ya. i did. i did admit that yes. i expect a lot from this friendship. so much that it kinda not us anymore. but me.
i felt angry because. i am really angry that why u the person. always ask me to go out. and i personally heard that u, urself said that u also want to drink. but why when i offered you to go out for a drink with me is such a hard thing to agree. maybe it is really pure luck that u are so unlucky everytime i ask u to drink. everytime i expect u to do something for me. u did not make it happened.... expect expect expect. assume. because i though that i could go all the way for u. but somehow, u did not met my expectation of being there for me.
ya. maybe i am a petty person. maybe it just the situation around that makes me into such despo for a break. for a drunk time, when i no need to take care or lead u all. and for once u all can take care for me. i so so so so needed this. but i think nobody really think that it had become so desperate to be drunk.
well... what is the cause of this. expectation and assumption.
but i know its my fault. there should not be any finger pointing at anybody. but it just a moment where u don't wish to say " there is no problem. and wish that u can point at someone else and say. ya, its ur fault. "
i 'm just down. forgive me if i say something or do something that hurt u all. because i so need a time to drink and forget anything else without any pressure that the clock is ticking.
i'm sorry.
friends.
-when are you
coming back? ;
...WISHES
...ENTERTAINMENT
