Thursday, September 13, 2007
i was walking back from a recuriting agency at battery rd and on the way to take train back home, when i walk pass mount zion.
hmm... while.. i wanted to find some book that can really push me toward greater height in my life and wanted some console from God or anyone. So i went in and start looking at the book section.
as i was looking, ha! i saw something that caught my attention. it is the exact book or answer that i am looking for. 'every teenager's LITTLE BLACK BOOK on reaching your dreams'.
when i flip the pages and look at the content, i was shocked. maybe it is ok for you guys out there. but well. i did pray, and i must admit. sometimes i did not pray very religliously. but. God still answer me.
the content are something like. "3 things to do when you are feeling low. "
"3 thoughts to eliminate from your thinking"
"3 keys to motivating yourself to do difficult things"
and of course many more.
i found it shocked, because this is what i was feeling that fews days ago. negative thoughs keep coming in, and i did not stop myself, not to think about it.
the book include about how to plan, work, friendship and opportunity that should not be miss.
well... i find it really fit my need because i have been facing a lot internally. and at the same time i am looking for jobs too. so this is like a big junction point of my life, which is really hard to walk.
okok. stop stop stop. negative thinking. one thing for sure. i may lose all my self confident. but i cannot lose confident on God. this is what i heard over the night on those christian channel. haha.
that why, i know HE is really doing his best. so i am also trying to do my best. because my weakness is really lazy... LAZY. i am really a very lazy person.!
my house is really messy. i have lots of clothes haven't wash yet. and i sleep the whole afternoon. arh....
i should really do something about it to keep me inspire.... well.. ya this is me. i need to do a housecleaning or something to feel inspire or feel new again. kinda weird. but ya. is me.
ok... me going interview tml for... eh... infact i forgot what is it. because i applied during mid august. and until now then they reply me. so i also forgot what is the position about. anyway it should be good. reeds exhibtions. is the company name. today went to this art auction house for interview. the job sound nice. but eh... it seems a lots of things to do...
then... friday going to flying dutchmen events company for interview... then... monday trading assistant interview also...
welll.... it not always like that. i have been through weeks without interview and rejection. it only happen after i pray. after i told kelly how sad i was, and how unhappy about my situation. and she asked me. " did u pray?" eh... that is the question... but the answer is "yes". but i know why. because. i did not believe. seriously. i did not believe and live for my prayer.
so. after that. i really pray.
hey, guys out there. i think u should really believe my God. because. you see. maybe u don't. but i think God is really very kind to me, as... well.. he really DO answer my prayer.
but well.. is not all the time, i have faith and always so religlious. i also have my downs and frustions. but i must have faith. i always feel peace after i complaint finish about everything to Him. haha... and i will have a nice sleep. haha...
ok... its late. will keep posted on my jobs interview...
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