Still Waiting

Sunday, September 30, 2007

yesterday, i went out with my poly frens for a gathering.
my fren email us earlier that we are eating at this "under the stars, and enjoy the riverview ambience" indonesia restaurant. The name, sound really nice and i quite looked forward to go. but when i was actually there, it started to rain.. so they have to put down the shelter and there goes my beautiful riverview~
but anyway, to my surprise, the food was good also. so its very worth the price of 13 buck for each person. we had a 6 course dish, u know... haha

after that, we wanted to go iguana cafe for a drink due to its 50% discount before 9pm. but there are lots of ppl waiting too. so we decided to walk over to clinic to take a look. but in the end, we went to this very fashionable bar, called fashion bar... haha...
which the light is very dim.... so dim until we have to use our hp light to see the menu. haha.
after that, mei zhi, ade, kim and i went to mos. but jo can't join us due to she got to go early.
but anyway. we got to check out the new "live band disco bar" called the lunar. hmm... we went in too early and i think the band have to start yet, but anyway is free entry b4 10pm. so we just used the toilet and came out. ha!

Mos was ok... cause we went in too early, and the crowd take some time to gather. so by the time we start dancing, it was already 11.30. to add on... the song wasn't very nice too... and there is no lolly pop for me... so it wasn't a very nice time. but though, i and mei zhi and ade. finally went clubbing together.
it was a pleasant surprise for me, when i finally met this long lost fren of mine. that is not the best thing. the best thing is. he has lolly pop! whoo hoo!

well... hmm.. this is kinda of my first entry, which i describe where i go and what i do. so kinda weird. haha.

but there is a secret i like to share... i told a lie during yesterday. haha...

-when are you coming back? ;

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

i am so sick of love problem.
love love love. something that make u fly to cloud nine and the next min to hell.
love is so complicated. because u know why.
because we as human being. are trying ways and mean to be good to ourselves. but when ppl fall into this trap thingy called "relationship" which equal to = i become we.
u are no longer urself anymore. u are "we".

u have to sometimes force urself to do things that u don't like. hmm... maybe for those inlove ppl out there. "force" may sound to be a harsh word to say. well. then let me say "compromise" instead.

i don't know. the more i am in this trapy thingy... the more i dislike it...
i hate it when i have to please, that e other "i" to be happy, when i am unhappy.
i hate to have hopes on him, when he bound to make me disappointed.
i hate that he is so inconsiderate of my feelings, when i am so concern about his.
i hate that, he got my love for him so easily, when i feel that i have to earn for his.
i hate it when he thinks that i know nothing except playing, when i already have him involved in my future plan. this shows that i do know what i want to do. not only playing.
and when i actually told him, the above feelings.... he hang up on me.

so.. conclusion is. i give up.
this is what i said to him, mins ago.

-when are you coming back? ;

Monday, September 17, 2007

i knoe... i knoe...
MY BLOG IS SUPER BORING.
this is really super boring... oh man... this shows that my life is really super boring...
no lah...

i knoe already....
is because no pic... no visual.... that why ppl get bored easily. like reading a book without any pic is real bored. unless the content is really damn interesting.

this whole entry is solely on boredness... haha...
cause i am so so so... lazy....

sleepyzzz... lazy....
just came back from interview and earlier on went out with kelly, eileen and xiao ling. we used her brother's car yesterday and went to eat prata at prata house. yum yum.... still miss it.

-when are you coming back? ;

Thursday, September 13, 2007

i was walking back from a recuriting agency at battery rd and on the way to take train back home, when i walk pass mount zion.
hmm... while.. i wanted to find some book that can really push me toward greater height in my life and wanted some console from God or anyone. So i went in and start looking at the book section.
as i was looking, ha! i saw something that caught my attention. it is the exact book or answer that i am looking for. 'every teenager's LITTLE BLACK BOOK on reaching your dreams'.
when i flip the pages and look at the content, i was shocked. maybe it is ok for you guys out there. but well. i did pray, and i must admit. sometimes i did not pray very religliously. but. God still answer me.
the content are something like. "3 things to do when you are feeling low. "
"3 thoughts to eliminate from your thinking"
"3 keys to motivating yourself to do difficult things"
and of course many more.

i found it shocked, because this is what i was feeling that fews days ago. negative thoughs keep coming in, and i did not stop myself, not to think about it.
the book include about how to plan, work, friendship and opportunity that should not be miss.
well... i find it really fit my need because i have been facing a lot internally. and at the same time i am looking for jobs too. so this is like a big junction point of my life, which is really hard to walk.

okok. stop stop stop. negative thinking. one thing for sure. i may lose all my self confident. but i cannot lose confident on God. this is what i heard over the night on those christian channel. haha.
that why, i know HE is really doing his best. so i am also trying to do my best. because my weakness is really lazy... LAZY. i am really a very lazy person.!
my house is really messy. i have lots of clothes haven't wash yet. and i sleep the whole afternoon. arh....
i should really do something about it to keep me inspire.... well.. ya this is me. i need to do a housecleaning or something to feel inspire or feel new again. kinda weird. but ya. is me.

ok... me going interview tml for... eh... infact i forgot what is it. because i applied during mid august. and until now then they reply me. so i also forgot what is the position about. anyway it should be good. reeds exhibtions. is the company name. today went to this art auction house for interview. the job sound nice. but eh... it seems a lots of things to do...
then... friday going to flying dutchmen events company for interview... then... monday trading assistant interview also...
welll.... it not always like that. i have been through weeks without interview and rejection. it only happen after i pray. after i told kelly how sad i was, and how unhappy about my situation. and she asked me. " did u pray?" eh... that is the question... but the answer is "yes". but i know why. because. i did not believe. seriously. i did not believe and live for my prayer.
so. after that. i really pray.

hey, guys out there. i think u should really believe my God. because. you see. maybe u don't. but i think God is really very kind to me, as... well.. he really DO answer my prayer.
but well.. is not all the time, i have faith and always so religlious. i also have my downs and frustions. but i must have faith. i always feel peace after i complaint finish about everything to Him. haha... and i will have a nice sleep. haha...

ok... its late. will keep posted on my jobs interview...

-when are you coming back? ;