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Princess : Grace Ng aka Enny
Age : 21
D.O.B : 12th August 1986

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Saturday, August 4, 2007

my mood is killing me~~

lots of lots of up and down. hmm. let me correct myself. is lots of anger and anger!

M is really killing me! i think i am really really going to hit my head against the wall! i don't understand why this bloody breathing walking "thing" does not seem to understand each word that is coming out of my mouth. am i speaking unknown foreign language?? i am speaking plain sin-lish.
there must be something wrong. it must be my unknown language or else it would be his barldy hell ears that is having something wrong. don't he understand that this matter is not about me. but US.

yup. all of you out there, listen up to what had happened.

i have ask my sister to take care of my dog, due to.. M's sister is organising a dinner for his dad birthday. But he had refused the offered because he is not happy about what happened last time, about the rushing to get home to look after my dog, half way if my sister start to complaint. but the thing is, i had asked my sister, long before tomorrow will come to take care of august. and after long thinking and planning. she agreed. and now. not only she can take care, but my mom suddenly is free to take care too.

but he just refused. he think that i am doing all this because i wanted to go for the chalet. hmm. ya... but there is the tiny winy part of the reason of why i wanted my sister to take care.
i mean, i should not feel anything wrong about it. cause well. my sister is also the owner of august. and the main MAIN reason, why i wanted to be alone with him, so we can spent some couple time.
is that too much to ask??
then he said, after august is recover, we have plentiy of time. ya. i agreed. but the thing is when? after few months? or half a year?
the thing is, it is not him that is going to take care and face him for the whole blardy hell of a week. everyday, 24/7. i have been facing august. even now! when we are together. there is august. there is no i and him now. it is I, HIM, AUGUST.
ya, i know, i am abit over think. it is not as bad as i have describe. but ... i am only hunger for couple times.

and i said to him, can u don't be so petty about the kbox thingy. and move on. cause now, i give my sister time to think and plan. and if she say ok. that means she has plan her way.
but he simply refused. because he is petty and he thinks that my sister will take this thing and complaint again. true but ugly of him.

i mean time for us to be together. than we must take it! while we can. don't he get it?
i mean i can hardly forseen any other good chances to be alone together. since now he got a good reason to let august be in my sister care.

and u know what? my sister is going to redaung? or whatever its spell island from this wednesday to saturday.
is not that i am angry over the idea. but deep inside, i am not very very very happy. seriously.
i think is i choose not to find a reason to be angry with this piece of information that i just heard. but i am just not happy. that maybe sound nicer than angry.

i may be just moody. ya. that sound even nicer.~
whatever.

i am not blaming her.
well. this is what i suppose to do. takin care of august. watching dvds. ya. maybe that will cheer me up.
i must look on the brighter side.
i am so amused. ha!

-when are you coming back? ;