Monday, July 30, 2007
as i have mention on my yesterday blog, i will try to blog as regularly as possible.
but today was not as bad as i have expected. cause today is a monday. my mom is off today, so she helped me to look after August today.
hmm.. to think of it. i think i am a little guilty over it. as i think i spent my whole day reading harry potter 5.
i only notice i have harry potter 5 after kelly spent a night at my house on the tuesday. as she was so engross in finishing her harry potter 6.
but anyway, yup. i finish reading it and i am waiting for my sister to finish the no. 6, so i can read it.
it was entertaining in reading it, cause we have seen the movie before. and we could image the characters look and expression. it was like a movie been play in your mind, but at the speed of your reading.
ok. today i nv had much time to have a decent conversation with marc.
hmm... well, because i was anxious to have the movie played finished as soon as possible inside my head.
felt pretty bad about it, after i finish the book, for not really paying attention to his calls. well.. but i think he will be ok with it...
mom made great ba ku teh today for dinner, although i was nv a fan of it.
August was good today. maybe his mood was also feeling better. and we did made him swim today in the small floated pool that i have blow for him. but i think it was too shallow for him. so my mom put him inside the small red container that we have. though the depth was good. but the diameter was too small..
so in the end, i think he just played water for today.
i really wish to jog for a while. maybe going to gym with eileen, as i have read her blog yesterday. but as i have say... wish to. haha.
well... when i have time. i will.
-when are you
coming back? ;
its a long long time since i blog again.
i think i must really build up that habit to. cause if not. why am i having a blog for?
well. to most ppl out there. ya.. i am back to singapore again~ the sunny island which i though the sun is alway shining on my side.
well, me saying that was actually very obvious that, the sun is not shining on my side.
firstly. don't ask me why i am back to singapore again. cause i am tired of explaining why. ( not because i am feeling gulity and the reason doesn't seems like a reason)
secondly. let see my life as a third party.
i see myself as hmm... yes. jobless now because of a pet, which is my dog. the famous August which has been appearing on my blog so many times. and to make the situation worse.
I abandon a whole bright future of overseas studies to came back to singapore.
I felt that i am very very absolutly tired, annoy, irritated, and worse of all. hate. to look after my dog. i felt that i am giving out every and each opportunities to go out to meet my friends, fun, gathering, and even dating! to look after my dog. because down right to one point. RESPONSIBILITY.
which is, example: i took care of august from the day that i am back until the first saturday of my return, i went our with marc(bf). i went our in the morning to sentosa, cause his company was having a family day. after that, we went to his friends house for steamboat follow by a karaok session. in the biggest room i have ever been to kbox. really. the room was like the double size of my living room. imagine it! ok. enough of that. that is not the main point. the main point is. when i am having the most fun of it. the thing that i irrks. most. happen.
my sister sms me and say. where are you? do u know that you are very irresponsible to throw august to mom's care. she has help you the whole day and you are not back yet. ?
"Arrgrrg!!!!"" i am so so so sick of it! nvm. alright. there~ gone. bye bye to my kbox
so u see it.
not going home early, putting august to other ppl care, except me is = IRRESPONSIBLE.
which in turn be = imature.
because i don't know how to think.
but the point is. at the very very first place. when buying august. my second sister also have the responsibility of taking of him.
but why is it. because oh.. she got to work the weekday so i have to take care of august. became naturally i have to take care of him the whole bardly hell time~
and that is not to make my life situation worse.
thirdly. my bf.
with august around. as because i can't let other ppl to take care of him. so in the end. even weekends i have to take him to my bf place.
which excuse moi~ do u know the fact that my bf also work 5 days a week. so that means. i sees him only 2 day. and this only tiny 2day have to share with my dog?!
and my dog barks for no reason over at his places, and he know that i have been taking care of him for the weekday. so he will try to help me to take care august. which i know personally. he, himself is very tired too. which adds up everything = bad situation to worse situation.
in addition. i felt so stupid to be angry over a dog?! which we had fun and love attitude to buy him at the vvery very first place.
can u see it? i can't voice what i am feeling now. because it will sound so so damn stupid ~ which it will even more show that i am very imature.
which also show IRRESPONSIBLE.
"ARRRRGGG""
and i can't complaint. cause this is what i come back for. remembber??
to even add to the realitiy pain that have been biting me, since i am back from the down under.
i am a unhappy, angry person. which means. i am always having negative thoughs.
arrrrrrrhhhhhhh~~~
this is so so so bad.
angry little me.
which i really don't really wish to see it as me. but arggg. that is the fact.
i am a angry person.
stay away. caution.
cause beware not the dog. but the owner.
imature. single word to describe what other will think of me.
-when are you
coming back? ;
...WISHES
...ENTERTAINMENT
