Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I am sad. ya. sad or what can i describe about how i am feeling now?
i am felt that my heart is so heavy that i can feel the weight on my neck.
maybe it is not sad, but trouble.
I can do nothing to help my dog. this is how i feel. ya, maybe ppl may think that it is just a dog, why should it let you affect ur feeling so much. but the fact is, i have so much to worry about. it is not why i am worrying about my dog, but i am worrying for myself. i am going to fly away from this sunny island soon. but the thing is, i have not do what i wanted to do before i leave.
I wanted to open a 21st birthday cum farewell party. i wanted to invite all my relatives, my primary school friends; "secondary boys and girls"; "poly groupmates"; church friends and well ya, and some "special friend-s". From young until now, i have not open any bday party b4. i have nv actually "be a star of the day" that i really want to be. i always wish that my 21st bday party would be fabulous and i will receive lots of wonderful gift so that i can have that satisfy smile on my face.
but now.. its not until that sad that i have no celebration at all. but it is all individual. but that is not the main problem yet.
the main problem is i am financial really broke. and August had to be taken care by me. because mom always think that, marc bought for me, so I am the owner. So I have to be responsible for him. Is not that i am blaming August. i mean no one wish that such things happened to any dog. ya. i have to update his condition. which is : he can't move now, he can only lie on the cushion. someone must feed him food, cause he can't move to eat by himself, so is everything. everything include: eating, pass urine and motion and also must keep observation on him, because i also have to think if the surrounding is it too cold or too hot for him. have to take serious care, because he cannot move.
well. i can't type long. cause he just cry. don't know why... he really seem very unconfortable and he show signal that he wish to turn around. infact it is really heartbreaking to see him like dat...
why must he become like that.
is really not that i am blaming him. is just that i have so many things to do now and wish to have as many gathering as possible. but i am broke and my stupid bf is not really very understanding. ya. great.
breath. PUSH.
-when are you
coming back? ;
Monday, June 18, 2007
You dance all over me
when i am unaware
You show me hope
when i am in my deepest valley
You are really amazing
And i am amazed by you, God.
I notice that in just this few months. God had actually help me and carried me through my problems. From the starting of my application for the uni, He gave me reply when i really needed. He gave me successful loan when i apply for one, He gave me accommodation when i seek, He gave the ticketing customer officer patience that could lasted her throughout the whole messy; mind changing customer like me and lastly He makes it perfect that my mom can stay in my accommodation, when at first the landlady say cannot.
I am amazed by God.
-when are you
coming back? ;
My dog just fall ill suddenly. so sudden, that i nv though that this kind of situation will fall on him. I think i really took him for granted, that everytime i reach home, he would welcome me with his wiggling tail and friendly bark. I really miss him alot, though its only like 3 days since he is not at home.
I know that God will makes his decision and He will plan the way. But sometimes, it is just too hard for us to understand why, but to accept it. I really hope and pray that my dog would be just like any other dog. Though i always pray for special. But this is the only time, i really wish that he could be as normal as every other dog. Well, all i can do now, is to visit him everyday and hope that my present would make him happy and be strong.
But I know that August is not the worse. there are other dog that is worse than him over there. However, i hope that, they are not what i seem them to be.
-when are you
coming back? ;
Monday, June 11, 2007
Today was a excited and nervous day for my fren. i think so. if it will to be me that is going to sign on the dotted line of the doc. marriage.
i am so happy for her. i am meeting my girlfriends and we are going to meet her at her house. i guess it will be alot of ppl going.
having headache in choosing what dress to wear... and hoping that it will not be too over~
really got to thanks God today.
i called up the agency and got to change my flight date. and guess what? i got a seat for 12july! hurray! i can attend xiao yan wedding. haha~
got chances to wear new shoes and wear nice dresses.
i mean i am not saying jo jo rom cannot wear nice dresses. but they should not be too over formal :p
hai~ but can't be too happy. cause the person is very mian qiang to help me hold on the tickets. as soon as i get my visa but this end of the month. i must quickly . at a lighting speed to call the agency to confirm my ticket. must keep praying.
IDP!!! faster send me my COE.... grrr!!
pray. pray. pray
Pray until something happen (PUSH)!
-when are you
coming back? ;
Monday, June 4, 2007
I hate to say it. but i am always planning ahead of times.
i need to plan, where am i going to stay; is there available tickets left; how many ppl is going; where can i find cheap accommodation without being disappointed when i step into one.
i feel like, i am really planning my own holiday. i am my own agent for myself...
i hate to admit it. but i am feeling sucks.
cause i always though this is the things that i like to do. planning...
i need money for everything... my expensive aussie 430 dollars visa... my family stay of 2 weeks in aust... and the living expenses for the 2 weeks, plus maybe some school adminsration fees and etc, etc...
i need to breath. stay calm.
ya, i am good.
-when are you
coming back? ;
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